Am I 'normal'?

[NH86]

Recently had a baby, DD2. She is 2weeks old.
DD1 is 7 years old.
Since becoming a Mum in 2014 I have developed anxiety around my kids health.
When DD1 gets sick, I am so beside myself that the physical symptoms of anxiety - faster heart rate, feeling sick and irrational thoughts swirling through my mind are unbearable.
Since having DD2, the first week I was like this everyday. It transpired that I was fighting Strep A infection and also had retained placenta. On day 8 I was readmitted (released after obs the following day) and have since been on antibiotics. Day 12 was when I found out that the infection was Strep A. At first, Public Health England were in contact and it all seemed serious, DD2 would need to go on antibiotics also. Within an hour they made contact again stating it was 'non evasive' Strep A and therefore just to monitor her.
This has sent my anxiety through the roof. I have a list of what I should be on the look out for but I find myself obsessing over every detail.

I'm driving myself mad but don't know how to stop it. I hate the way the anxiety makes me feel.

So, has anyone experienced this? I'll do anything to stop these feelings, even medication.
What are your experiences?

To note, I have referred to the perinatal mental health team.

Thanks for reading.

Hopefully the perinatal team will help with you anxiety. I suffer with anxiety and found medication (sertraline) and cbt really helped ease it and worry less with my LO.
Hope you get help soon, GP can put you on meds today

Agree with Pepoermint. It sounds as though you really need to speak to your GP honestly about how you are feeling. It's not healthy for you or your DC and there is help available

How are things today @NH86?

I struggle with this too and have been referred x

Hi everyone.

Apologies it's been a tough few days.

I had my scan today and unfortunately, the retained placenta is still in situ.
I feel like all my anxieties are coming true and all that does is fuel that all my thoughts will be or are real.

I will call my GP tomorrow and see what she can suggest for me. I'll happily try medication to help me.

I was like this with DD2. A lot of doctors on the ward I was readmitted to (haemorrhage rather than strep) said they had PNA and it was worse than PND in the ones who had been unlucky enough to experience both conditions but that it was also less we'll known/often not diagnosed.
I promise it gets easier. I am like that with my eldest too (8yr old) and my youngest (now 2) in the helicopter parent that knows the whole Paeds Encyclopaedia backwards way and it is still much better than that Ford tree weeks with PNA.
Not much use or advice but hang in there. You know what to look for and you are being very careful and caring. Try and remember that it will most likely all be go e and you will look back and think what a waste of energy it was fretting.
That said, I won't be having another as even though I currently think, "next time I really will relax and enjoy it more", I know in reality it could happen again and I don't think I could take it!
It is not your fault and you are not strange or crazy. It will all pass and you will find peace. These are difficult times as it is, be gentle with yourself. Ask for as much help as you need. You sound like a lovely caring Mum. Best of luck xx

Typos - "first 3 weeks", sorry!