Please please please tell me this is a normal part of PND

[Bonnie90x]

Help.

Diagnosed with PND/A in May, after suicidal thoughts and one attempt. Have had a stint in hospital too. Now on a combo of ADs, diazepam and zopiclone. I'm under CRHTT and a psychiatrist and they visit twice a week now, it used to be daily. I have a social worker who takes me out of the house where possible as I don't drive , live rurally and have a 3 yoDD and 4 month old DS. It's been,quite frankly the most hellish time of my life but as the days turned to weeks I slowly started to see light at the end..until this week. Suddenly almost overnight I am a mess again. I want to run away, I want to be alone all the time, I feel myself withdrawing and becoming unbearable to be around. I'm snappy and not enjoying my children or my dp who has done so much to help throughout this illness. I feel like I'm heading back to the start.

For further info my AD was upped this week - could it be that? Or am I spiralling back into the darkness? Or am I just a fucking horrible person. Please give me some words of wisdom as I'm sat here mind racing and begging for answers

Can you reach out to your crisis team? Could be a reaction to new dose of meds.

It does get better, it's really shit though,I remember it well x

Thank you for replying. I'm due a visit from crisis on Monday but perhaps I should call them today. It's hard to know if it's the illness, the meds or just stress. I just want to feel like me again, how long does PND even last? It feels like forever already x

Call them today.

It's different for different people but it won't be like this forever, you'll start having good days and then the good days will outweigh the bad and when when you do get a bad day it won't be the end of the word. Give them a call.