Hi,
Not sure where to start but I could really do with some advice. I had baby no 3 (unplanned but not unwanted) in November 2020. From the onset, he was a difficult baby, would cry and scream for hours on end, day and night. After a few months of trying everything, I went on a dairy free diet but nearly 7 months in and he is still so unsettled. Every day is a living nightmare. I dread the days and then I dread the nights because he wakes pretty much every hour and wants feeding (I exclusively bf) even though I am trying to wean him in solids so thought this might improve by now. I have tried so many different bottles and methods to try and get him to bottle feed so my husband can help me with the feeds but he refuses it all. I am at my wits end. I havent had suicidal thoughts but think about being dead all the time, which I then feel guilty about because I am blessed with my health when many others arent. I cant see any enjoyment in life, I feel guilty about not being able to spend any time with my 2 other children but as the baby is so demanding and cries all the time, I cant do anything other than hold him and try and stop the screams. I've nobody to take him for a few hours just to give me a break and my husband is at work and dont think he quite gets what I'm going through. I just dont know what to do but I know from my previous babies that this isnt 'normal' and despite everyone saying it wont last, I just cant see light at the end of the tunnel. :-(