Hello, can someone help? I think I might have PND and don't know what to do. I called my GP this morning but they are only taking emergency appts so can't get an appt for a few weeks. I just want to feel better but don't want to pay a therapist.
I have a gorgeous 6 month old, an amazing supportive husband and a lovely house. My family are wonderful and I have kind caring friends. I want to enjoy it all.
Instead I feel tired all the time and starting to feel like I cant be bothered to do anything. Nothing seems that fun or it seems like a big effort. I'm not even that excited about lockdown ending and being able to go out with friends - I can't think what we'd all talk about after a year of nothing (usually I'm a v sociable person).
6 months into mat leave and I'm still angry about work events that happened when I was pregnant (like being promoted and made to take on a lot more pressure and work without a pay rise and forced to make colleague friends redundant due to covid). I feel like I will be made redundant myself when I'm off mat leave by the horrid American company that bought our company a couple of years ago and I know I have had maternity discrimination but subtly so I'd probably struggle to prove it. Thoughts like this whir around my head at night.
I vaguely mentioned to my husband I thought I might have a little PND but the fear in his face was so extreme I back-tracked as I don't want to scare or upset him (he has a stressful job too and I want him to be happy). Plus I'm not sure how he could help, he's amazingly supportive anyway with baby and house etc. there's not really any more he could do.
I want help, I want to feel happy, I want to forget work and just enjoy maternity leave but I don't even know where to start to get help. I don't like the health visitor and GP is a nightmare to get an appt with. What do I do?