Hey ladies,
This is my first time posting here, the pregnancy forum was always a huge help so I thought I would make a post here.
I am currently 2 weeks post partum, I have a healthy baby boy and he is doing great. Had a healthy pregnancy, vaginal birth, no complications other than a first degree tear. I am healing well.
So a little bit of a background on me. I have PTSD and have experienced mild depression in the past. I have had a LOT of therapy (CBT, psychotherapy, EMDR) for my PTSD and trauma, and also got some therapy for when I was depressed which I was able to pull out of it without any medication and some good therapy. I am also a mental health therapist myself.
So, I know its still a little early but I am a little concerned about the possibility of postpartum depression. I have been bonding well with my son, I'm just very emotional and very stressed. I seriously freak out about him being able to breath.. especially when he's in his car seat or in the swing, because I have read about babies suffocating themselves because they are bent over and do not have the strength to pick their head up, so they cannot breath. I am overly emotional because my husband is pushing to start tummy time already (okayed by the doc) and I'm seriously not ready for that. I am overly sensitive about that too, like the first time he did tummy time my son was face planting into the floor..and to alleviate my fear of him not being able to breath, I helped him move his head.. my husband told me to "let him figure it out". That pissed me off, even though I know I probably took it the wrong way. Also SIDS is on my mind. Please know I have an AMAZING husband, he has really been working hard to be a good dad and husband during this time of me healing after birth including doing projects around the house and keeping the house clean. Also my dog recently got injured so now we have to take care of the dog and the baby. I'm also just feeling a lot of pressure to do the right thing.. I want my baby to be a baby for a little bit and without putting on the pressure to meet these milestones ahead of time. I also feel like I am being selfish by not wanting him to do tummy time right now because I want him to be a baby..and that makes me feel awful.
I was just wondering if these emotions I am feeling are normal? What should I watch out for? Am I being too critical of myself?