After a traumatic birth 12 days ago which involved 40 hours of induced labour, multiple increases in the hormone drip, two epidurals and eventually an episiotomy and forceps in theatre where I had a massive panic attack, I've been left feeling pretty horrified at the birth. When I was discharged I woke up in the night with a huge panic attack thinking I was going to die. An ambulance was called and I was taken back to hospital - they couldn't find anything wrong and all checks were fine. Since then I have been waking every night with severe night terrors, flashbacks etc. I have health anxiety and I'm convinced the epidural has damaged my nerves and I'm going to die and not see my baby again. I feel like I have been hit by a bus and my body hates me. I have had to take sleeping tablets after becoming delirious as I hadn't slept for 7 days straight. All in all I've had a nightmare 😢 and I just want anyone who's had a similar experience to tell me that it's going to be ok and one day it'll all be a memory? I have my beautiful baby but in no way was I prepared for this. I just feel like everything is so overwhelming.