Traumatic birth, grim recovery.

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Hi ladies

Super fed up and low.
Had an extremely traumatic birth 15 weeks ago.
Midwife was inexperienced had me pushing for 2 hours. Doctor done internal and said I'm never getting baby out she's turned sideways.
By this point I was absolutely screaming with pain. They finally gave me pain relief and I ended up with episiotomy and forceps.
Got my lovely baby finally 🥰

Since then Iv had granulation tissue removed off of episiotomy scar. And Iv had two infections internally. I also had a mri scan and confirmed the birth fractured my coccyx. Also have a lump/barrier internally in vagina (uterine prolapse I'm assuming) doctor didn't know 😫

Still 15 weeks on suffering with back pain from fracture...
I'm now having thick yellow discharge again! Can only think a third infection!!

The barrier is still present. I'm absolutely sick to death of not healing and recovering. Doctors just don't no and give me antibiotics...
Please can someone help me? What do I do now? I'm waiting for another doctors phone call today and I'm going to ask them to refer me privately now as I'd pay anything for them to just sort me out 😭

My episiotomy has also started hurting internally since the discharge. What is going on 😤

Sorry i don't really have any advice but didn't want to read and run. Your birth experience sounds awful, bless you i really hope you get some answers soon and can start to recover properly x

Hi OP - I can really relate your birth sounds very similar to mine. I'm now 21 weeks PP and my episiotomy is almost healed (stitches fell out after 5 days, i've had 3 infections and have hypergranulation tissue). It could be another infection causing the pain but the discharge may be due to further hypergranulation i'd suggest seeing the nurse practitioner or GP and in my case they prescribed a steroid cream.

In terms of your coccyx fracture I think that's just a case of pain management until it heals on its own. For the barrier ask for a referral to gynae - I was seen 12pp by the gynae consultant in the postnatal clinic at the hospital and she did a full examination to see what was going on there.

I can really relate to your feeling it's never going to end and that you're never going to heal as that was literally how I felt. I'm coming out the other side of it now and you will too soon, take care OP.

@VioletSunset @carleyemma91
Thank you so much.

I went back to the doctors last week. Saw a different doctor this time. She seemed very experienced. She said my episiotomy is huge up inside vagina and it feels as tho my stitches had torn apart. The way she described it was a chicken breast, and if you imagine cutting into it longways it's fanned out and open. It's obviously healed like this inside, and at the end of the episiotomy is the barrier. Where anything inserted hits. She could go past it and few cervix is closed so it's not a prolapse or anything like that. She's now sending me for a pelvic ultrasound. And my gynaecologist app is hopefully going to be fast forwarded.

I have however booked to see a gynaecologist privately next week as I'm sick to death of feeling poorly down there. My relationship has gotten very sour and i need it to be sorted as it's effecting my mental health.

It seems absolutely never ending. I'm now also on antibiotics again. Actually had my period start so don't no if discharge is clearing.

I'm so sorry you have experienced the same birth and recovery like me. It's absolutely pants! Xx