HELP! Really Struggling

[Atticus500]

I’ve been diagnosed with PPD and have been on medication for the last 4 weeks (though only on the optimum dose for two) and I’m really struggling with my feelings. Woke up today with thoughts of suicide and had a panic attack in the bathroom. I then nursed 9 week old DD in floods of tears and told my husband that I just want to die because I feel so desperate and miserable. I could really do with hearing success stories of twofold nature - When does it get easier with a newborn? I feel trapped and can’t enjoy her at all (am considering switching to FF to help with this) and secondly, Are these feelings normal and when do they get better? I feel like I’m going completely mad and it’s so incredibly upsetting

I'm not an expert, but switching to formula feeding might help because it might help with your hormone levels. I know I was an absolute hormonal wreck after I had mine, but it did settle down a bit after my milk came and went. I FF and it does help in that you can have a break away from your baby when you need to, partner and others can help with feeds etc and you can get a bit of personal space for yourself. Just don't make the mistake I made with my first thinking that you have to do it all even if you're FF.