I think something is wrong - PNA

[Tiggytigert]

Im 7 months PP -

I am living in a constant state of anxiety. Whether it's one thing or another, I'm constantly anxious about something. It's my DC's breathing or it's eating solid foods (which sometimes reduces me to tears because I think I should let DC get on and do it alone but at the same time I absolutely freak if a piece to big is bitten off) I worry about head size all the way to sleep apnea.

Im just fucking ridiculous. I feel ridiculous.

I love DC so much that I'm SO worried I'm going to fail and feel like I'm fairly certain I'm already there.

Typing this, i know something isn't right but DH is adamant there's nothing wrong and that it's just normal mum worrying, he brought it up at the in laws the other day and now I feel even more ridiculous.

Im just feeling like maybe my worries aren't really worries at all, or maybe, every single mother worries about this and I'm just over playing it in my head.

Has anyone here had/suffered/overcome PNA (post natal anxiety)? Are these common symptoms? 😢

The worries you are having are normal for all mums. What doesn’t sound normal is your reaction to the worries eg I too am worried about DD biting off too much but I’m like aah aah ahh (no no no) and take a bit out if I can, would totally freak out if she choked though and probably not feeding her anything solid enough to actually cause her to choke helps. Could you talk to your HV?

I agree with Louise. Every mother worries but when you start struggling to keep those worries in perspective or it starts to make you snappy and stressed then it's worth discussing it with your GP.
I had PNA although I do have significant difficulties with anxiety anyway but it was well above my baseline.

@LouiseTrees I'm in two minds really, does every mum sit and worry about every little thing? Googling, to find answers about absolutely any little worry and anxiety around it? I guess that's a good idea, but, she hates purrees and anything she can't feed herself.

@PastMyBestBeforeDate the main thing is the food really. Maybe I just should not be doing BLW and should just stick to purees etc but she hates them, she physically chews on the spoon and rips actual food out of your hands and, is, very good with it does amazing most of the time. Most of the bickering me and DH are around her foods and eating. I'm constantly convinced something is wrong with her and he eases my worry slightly and then I still sit and strew. I'm not a big anxious person really, apart from telephones and big groups of new people but since having her, yes I'm definitely more so and I use her as a comfort.

Yes one of mine was keen to stuff food in their face rather than accept 'safe' purees. It took every nerve I had not to react when they started gagging but actual choking is silent. Can you do a paediatric first aid course? Hopefully there's an online version.

@PastMyBestBeforeDate First aid trained, specifically in paediatric! Even did a refresher and taught DH what to do. Still, gives me so much anxiety. She took a, big piece today and gagged properly and was with DH and I had to walk away and cried I was so nervous. I literally just am riddled with it. I don't think I'd even begjm to know what to do if she did actually choke, she loves food so scoffs it in like no tomorrow! Which I assume, I'm supposed to let her do!?

[quote Tiggytigert]@LouiseTrees I'm in two minds really, does every mum sit and worry about every little thing? Googling, to find answers about absolutely any little worry and anxiety around it? I guess that's a good idea, but, she hates purrees and anything she can't feed herself.[/quote]
I know I do. I google every new experience

What about giving her things that are solid but melt in the mouth just til you get a little more comfortable?

Ah the walking away and crying despite knowing it's gagging sounds like me. When one of mine actually had something choking them (years after weaning) I automatically slammed them on the back and all was well. I didn't panic or make a big thing of it and only when I am reminded of it do I go cold.
Have a chat with the GP.

@PastMyBestBeforeDate I'm sure I'd react the right way if I knew it was choking straight away, natural reflexes kick in and all! Just honestly, scares me so much!

Think I'll start with softer items like PP have said