I’m 18+4 weeks pregnant currently and hoping to try and breast feed with more success than I had last time.
I BF my first baby, now 6, for 6 months, from then onwards she weaned herself off.
With my second baby, now 13 months, everything seemed to be going well, in the days following her birth she seemed incredibly content, had a perfect latch and everything seemed to be going well until I got home.
My stepdaughter (10) and DD were at home and everytime baby DD latched onto me I had these god awful feelings ha of anger and rage that I’d never experienced before. I’ve read about breast feeding agitation but this anger wasn’t directed towards my new baby at all but her older siblings. The sensation of her sucking seemed to make me want to tear someone’s head off. The feelings diminished as soon as baby unlatched. In the end, I couldn’t deal with the way BF was making me feel towards my eldest girls. I didn’t want to talk to anyone about it for fear of them thinking I was an unhinged nut case.
Does anyone have any experience of this? I’m not sure whether it’s PPD related or not?