Is this the start of PND?

[AssumeItWasSomethingClever]

DS is 10 months old and over the past month or so I have been feeling generally crappy. I feel like I'm being a bad mum on a daily basis.
I'm fed up of feeling like I'm failing him.
I'm fed up of constantly feeling guilty.
He's always been difficult to get to sleep. He doesn't nap during the day. He does sleep through the night but if he happens to wake, you've got atleast a hours struggle to get him back to sleep. I'm exhausted.
I feel like everything is slipping. The state of my house, my work (I work from home a few hours a week), my relationship with DH.
I cry so much more than I used to. I used to be able to count on one hand the amount of times I cried in a year. Now, I cry a couple of times a week.
I love him more than life itself but sometimes I feel like he'd be better off without me.

Oh hun some solidarity here, I have 6.5 month old and sometimes feel the same. I have no family nearby so it's just us.

In the first instance you are tired and not getting much of a break. Have you thought about some sort of sleep training for daytime naps?

Can you afford a nursery or childminder for a few hours a week?

The waking nights can be crushing, but I'm led to believe that improving day time naps will contribute to better nights.

Chat to your health visitor or gp if you feel this is more than needing a break, but otherwise look to your support network fir some help. Do you have family nearby?

Hugs 💐