(This might be long, sorry)
Just to preface, I know I’m only really going to get an answer and some advice by going to the GP, I’m just looking for opinions really I suppose.
I had the depo injection around 5 weeks after giving birth to my first, and I struggled with it, it really affected my mental health. Myself and my partner found the time quite difficult, and there were some conversations about whether I could perhaps have PND.
We came to the conclusion that it seemed to just be the effects of the injection and this was supported by an improvement in my mood etc when this wore off.
I then went onto the progesterone only pill in preparation for having the copper coil fit; ended up being on this for around 4 months and although initially fine, did start to see some feelings/thoughts/behaviours returning from the previous months.
I now have the copper coil and I’ve really just been feeling quite up and down, but definitely haven’t felt the significant improvement I was expecting when coming off hormonal contraception.
For a bit of context as to what it is I’m feeling:
Feel very emotionally sensitive (like I’m due a period!)
Tired all the time when baby sleeps well so that’s not the reason
Little tasks feel huge (mealtimes etc)
Become very emotional when baby really cries
Feel as though I’m not doing the best job in being her mum
Worry I’m too selfish to parent
Feel we have a great bond but worry she prefers others
Frustrated with myself when she cries or seems unhappy, doesn’t want to eat etc, as I feel like I should be able to help more
Though I never lose my patience with her or shout, I feel as though I’m less patient than I should be, for example I can find it difficult if she’s particularly clingy one day, though the other side of me loves the extra cuddles so it’s a constant internal battle!
I’m really just looking to see whether this seems to others like a consequence of having had a baby relatively recently and then changing contraception 3 times, or whether it does sound more akin to mild PND?
I’d appreciate any opinions or advice :)