12 days PP and just can’t stop crying

[TheSweatyPregnancy]

Hi

Just looking for some advice or reassurance that this is all normal and hormonal?

My baby was born 12 days ago via EMCS after a few days in hospital with Sepsis. All really traumatic and just an all around horrible experience.
He was then in NICU until 4 days ago when we were finally discharged and allowed home.

Since I’ve come home I am just crying all the time over anything. I just feel overwhelmed, exhausted and like I am still recovering from the illness.

I had a horrible birth experience and was desperate to get myself and my baby home so we could start to bond properly and just have a normal life.

Is it normal to feel really low after almost 2 weeks? DP is great and is encouraging me to catch up on sleep, have time alone every day etc but I can’t bare to be away from our baby and I can’t sleep worrying about him.

Please reassure me this will pass

I remember crying a lot at 12 days pp, I started to feel better about 3 weeks pp. 19 days was the first day I didn't cry, and only because it was birthday and I promised myself I wouldn't cry all day! I definitely didn't have PND and think that was the best year of my life now!

It’s normal to feel traumatised for up to six weeks after a traumatic event. Do speak to your GP or HV but you have had a very difficult time and then you need to deal with becoming a parent. Be very kind and gentle with yourself.

You are recovering from major abdominal surgery. How dare your iron levels?

How are you feeling now OP?

I am 12 days PP today after a stressful birth with meconium in the fluid, babies heart rate dropping and an episiotomy. She then spent 2.5 days in NICU for fluid on the lungs and suspected sepsis, we were in hospital 7 days. Today I've not stopped crying, I feel detached, exhausted and I have a bladder infection and an infected episiotomy stitch which has come undone so I feel your pain!
Maybe day 12 is generally not a happy day! 😬

@greystar30 it gets better.

So I am 7 weeks pp today and feeling a lot better!

I think it was a mix of the traumatic birth and maybe a little hint of baby blues but it definitely eased off, the day I posted this thread was probably my worst day.

I’m sorry you had a rough birth, it’s awful isn’t it? But you’re okay and you’re baby is okay and I think as long as you remember that it makes everything feel a little less overwhelming!

I also had a bladder infection around 2 weeks pp too, and with having sepsis come from a bladder infection previously I was highly anxious but it went and I survived

It definitely gets better!

Congratulations on your little one! I feel like mine isn’t even a new baby any more! He’s gone bloody huge so quick!

@TheSweatyPregnancy I'm really glad you're feeling better 😊 oh wow that must've been worrying after having sepsis from an infection previously, I'm glad it cleared up ok for you.

Hopefully this will also be my worst day and it will be mostly uphill from here x

I hope this is your lowest day too!

Just make sure you’re asking for help
If you need it, people are almost always happy to have cuddles for an hour or two while you do whatever you need to to feel like yourself again

And you can always come and complain here if not

Hope you feel better soon x

Thank you @TheSweatyPregnancy 😘 🤞🏻