Hi all just looking for some advice I had a planned c section in January (due to a horrendous emcs previous where both baby and I nearly died and then was told I would die if I further pregnancies) the delivery went well but baby was ill and and taken to scubu for 3 days I was sent home after 4 days with an in dwelling catheter which caused an horrendous infection and I was re admitted to hospital a day after returning home for iv antibiotics. Over the last 4 months I have continued to be in and out of hospital for for further antibiotics and treatments due to hospital acquired infections where I have nearly died and also been treated for sepsis. So my mood has been up and down continually and in the back of head I hear the drs words telling me I am going to die my anxiety is through the roof but I feel sad too not sure why but I don't feel like me but I do love my little boy very much in fact he is the only thing that can really make me smile. But I feel anxious sad tired scared nervous low sex drive which I have never had before not much interest in things and I can't really cope with being out i put on a brave face and I go because I have too but I am panicking to get home. I am not sure if it's PND or not ? Can any one advise everything I look at seems to say the relationship with baby sometimes isn't there but that isn't the case ?