Postnatal depression / anxiety

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My daughter is 8 month now. For a while now (maybe 3 months) I've not felt like I'm coping. My mood dips where the slightest issue makes me cry. I worry about everything, irrational things to most people but since my dad died 4 years ago I feel any bad thing can happen now, (I had some counselling after having bad anxiety which went away fully until recently). I have no patience whatsoever with anyone. I fall to bits when my baby cries if I can't settle her. I'm scared to go out with her other than a couple of places nearby, for fear of not managing alone. I often find myself imagaing escaping on holiday alone. I'm scared of going to the doctors because last time (when I struggled after my dad's death) I could barely get my words out to say what was wrong. I will feel like this for a short time then all of a sudden I feel better and happy, but then it comes back again. It's happening more often and worse each time. Does this sound like PND?

Didn’t want to read and run. Sorry you are struggling. I think it’s definitely worth a chat with a GP or health visitor? Maybe you could make some notes before hand to help you if you lose what you wanted to say?

Thanks for your message. I had a bit of a breakdown this morning in front of my partner and couldn't even speak to him so I showed him my post. It's helped speaking to him and am going to call gp tomorrow. He suggested the same thing to make notes to take. Thanks again.

I’m so sorry you are feeling this way. Whether it’s PND or not you definitely need to speak to someone to help you work through your feelings. It’s definitely a good idea to write your thoughts and feelings down. I am 7 weeks pp and have been struggling with my physical recovery, which has really got me down, so I sent my husband a text so I could make sure I said everything I needed to before getting upset. I hope you get an appointment with your gp soon and get some help. Don’t suffer in silence and make sure you keep talking about it. x

Thanks PurpleMumma. I definitely need to speak to someone, I need to feel better for my daughter.

Sorry to hear you are feeling down. It took me about 10 weeks to feel back to normal and I remember how I would feel so down with the pain and not being able to look after my little girl properly because of it. I kept feeling better then would overdo things and feel worse. I had to go back to the hospital and gp a couple of times because the pain was so bad. I had an infection and needed antibiotics 3 times. Have you got your pain meds sorted out? Hope you're getting support from family because I know it's tough in the early weeks.