My little one is now 9 weeks old and I am not finding things any easier . It was a bit of a rough start birth wise and then in the hospital and issues with establishing breast feeding and a few health issues . I was assessed as high risk for postnatal depression and now I am worried about having to take anti depressants as I feel very anxious and am struggling . My confidence has plummeted and I find the days on my own very hard . I am worried about the effects of the medication on my little one. If anyone has experienced similar I would very much appreciate advice . I had a very healthy pregnancy and I hadn't really anticipated any of this .