Depression, bad mood or exhausted?

[popsicle19]

Hi 👋 this seems extremely weird to me to be posting but I've got to the point of not knowing what else might help...

I have a 3yo and a 7mo. Since the birth of 7mo I have, understandably, been tired and worn out. Two is a lot harder than I suspected.

My partner helps out when he is home but on weekends he doesn't stay home all day and I dont have parents around to help.

I have found myself having real low points since the birth. Put these down to "baby blues" and then I thought it was the new pill so I stopped that but they just seem to keep coming. One minute I think I'm fine and then I have a particularly difficult day and I feel horrid.

I'm not really sure what to do as I don't think anyone really understands / takes me seriously when I try to convey how hard I find it (7mo is a handful)! 7mo is ebf and won't take to a bottle so I am literally 24/7 and some days just feel like I am at breaking point.

Is anyone else in a similar boat or can shed some words of wisdom??

I feel to say I am depressed seems too extreme as I don't feel like this all the time but when i do feel like it it is so horrible it feels like a sort of depression?

Help needed. Feeling like a really shit mum.

If you are worried about PND, definitely talk to someone about it. Had it with my first, and it's not something to struggle through alone!

That said, it may not be... It's tough enough having just one kid (my 2nd is on the way!) so I can well imagine being constantly exhausted with two kids. It wouldn't be at all unusual to have days where you feel like you're not coping - it's okay to feel like that from time to time. I think if it was every day, I'd be a lot more worried.

I had CBT for my depression a couple of years ago, and I still remember my therapist telling me it's okay to not love every minute of being a mum! It's normal to have days where you're sick of being constantly needed and never having time to yourself. That doesn't make you a bad mum. Try to catch the negative thoughts - acknowledge them, don't feel guilty for having them, and just move on. They're only thoughts, and thoughts can be so twisted and warped especially when you're tired!

Xxx