PND or just tired??

[Nichola2310]

My baby is 5months old tomorrow so late in the day to be discussing PND.

After he was born I was very down but I was in a lot of pain and struggling to function due to a back condition from pregnancy that didn’t go away. As the months have gone on I’ve found things challenging and although I’m much better physically I still take a lot of painkillers.

My relationship with my husband has struggled since the baby was born, and although I’ve had multiple conversations with him, things seem to stay the same. The last time I really felt close to my husband was the morning we left to go to the hospital.

I feel really flat and lonely most of the time. I’ve always been baby mad and my sister has 4 so I’ve had lots of practice. Last week my mum asked me after all my years of running after my nieces and nephews was having my own baby all I’d ever imagined it to be? I ended up side stepping the question because I felt I couldn’t answer honestly.

This should be a happy time, not every minute of the day, but generally a happy time, and I’m just not.

Any thoughts welcome.

Oh OP. It does sound like it could be PND to me but the best thing to do is to see your GP. It's definitely not too late in the day, I didn't see the doctor until DS was just over a year and he still diagnosed me with PND. I also thought it could just be tiredness and to be honest when DS started sleeping (a bit) better things got much much better for me. Partly because I was less tired and partly because I started to get more time to myself and with DH in the evening. I look back now (DS is 15 months) and I'm taken aback by how unhappy I was. It does get better OP, it really does, you're still early days. Do see the doctor though as the best thing to do is just to say it out loud and it may be that there are support groups or specialised counselling where you are. I was fast tracked through the system in my area and ended up getting counselling within 6 weeks or so, so well worth doing.

Thank you for your kind response @Raspberry88. I’ve made an appointment to see my GP next week.