Is this PND?

[elephanto]

My little one is almost 2. I had a traumatic birth and had counselling for PTSD. My main worry was that I didn't have a bond with my little one.

He started nursery recently and I do drop off and dad picks up. When I drop him off he screams and screams. When I get home later he refuses to come near me. It's like he hates me for leaving him at nursery.

He has a great relationship with dad, always laughing and joking and his face lights up when dad is around. But not the same for me.

I feel like I do everything for him, put my whole heart into everything, and feel like I'm nothing to him.

It's breaking my heart and I find myself crying and thinking what's the point anymore so often now.

Could it be delayed PND?

Anyone?

You do sound depressed, elephanto. I think it will all work out eventually but you really do need a bit of kindly help.

I hope someone better qualified than I can be of more help. Didn't want to read and run.

Did you feel these feelings from the beginning too? I had/have pnd. Took me 2 years to get help. I feel alot better now although there are still bad days I very rarely cry everyday anymore

Thanks for your replies! At the beginning I was so traumatised by the birth and the poor aftercare I received the feelings were different back then. Before I was anxious about anything bad happening. Now I just feel like I'm failing at everything