Feel like I can’t be bothered?

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It sounds so awful, my DS is 13 weeks tomorrow and I find myself wishing I never had him or that I waited to have him.

I’m not sure if I’m suffering with PND or if I’m just being horribly selfish. I feel like my life is over.

I can’t be bothered to play with him, take him on walks, go to baby groups or any of those Mum things that are supposed to be enjoyable. All I want to do is lay and watch tv.

I get quite cranky/annoyed whenever he cries or becomes whiny and then I feel guilty for feeling that way.

I don’t feel like I love this child, I didn’t get that “rush of love” when he was first handed to me.

I feel like such a horrible mother, I sit and cry because of the lack of love I feel for him.

Anybody shed any light on whether this gets better? I feel like I will never love him

I don’t have any experience of PND but I would say that as your feelings are impacting on your day to day life - just wanting to lie and watch tv, that it could be depression. I would suggest talking to your HV or GP about how you’re feeling and see what support they can offer you. Don’t feel guilty for feeling this way, it can’t be helped. I hope you get the support you need. All the best.

Yes it sounds very much like pnd. Ask your doctor what services there are in your area. It gets better with support. I had pnd and never had the rush of love and only really felt love when my son was 6m.

Sounds like PND to me. I have it and it took me 3 months to feel love for my daughter l. But it did come with time and treatment.

Reading this made me think "wow, did I write this?" That was EXACTLY how I felt when my DD was born.
I also never felt that "rush of love" other mummy's say they experienced. But it came within time, the more I bonded with her during feeds, nappy changes etc.

I think what you need mama, is a big cuddle, a cup of tea, some support and a trip to your gp!
Do you have a partner or any family that can help support you?
So sorry you're feeling this way, but like we've all said on the post so far, you WILL get that love for him eventually.
Don't feel guilty about it, because I'm sure 99% sure most mums feel that way.

Echo everything that's been said here. Having a new baby is utterly exhausting and most of the time so mundane and boring. Seeking help will make things much better I'm sure. Good luck and hope it goes well

I totally get what you're saying. My son was born at 32 weeks by emergency c section (hes now 7 months old) & although I would do anything for him, I have never felt that rush of love. I read what other people write online when I Google 'why don't I love my baby' & it brings me to tears every time. I lack the drive to go & tend to him when he is crying (I obviously do go to him!) Being a mum is hard, particularly when you have these emotions to battle with. Several friends had babies around the same time as me and I'm envious of the love that they speak of for their own babies.... Mine cries and it just irritates me. Its getting better but he is very needy at the moment and I can barely lay out him down for 2 mins without him screaming bloody murder at me! Don't beat yourself up love, people are too ashamed to admit how they feel (myself included) but from what I can gather, we are not unusual for feeling the way we do.