My baby will be one this month, and I really hoped and thought I'd be back to how I looked, felt, before I was pregnant.
I've struggled with my identity since the baby was born, just that feeling of not being myself. I've been struggling to lose the last stone of baby weight for the last few months, and I really don't feel happy. I love my husband to boys but I have no interest in him coming near me. I feel disgusting and like I just want to hide away from the world. When I think logically I know it's silly, I'm only a size 10 so hardly big but I just feel so annoyed at myself that a year later I'm still not back to my pre pregnancy weight.
I cut my long hair short and drastically changed the colour, and now desperately wish I hadn't. I look at pre pregnancy photos and I long to look the same.
It's silly I know, but it's really getting me down.