Feeling really down

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So my gorgeous little girl is 12days old today and I'm a single mummy by choice (had donor treatment)

I can't complain about her at all, she sleeps pretty well and is putting on weight well. Only really cries when hungry

Yet I cry everyday and feel so low. I'm on a 28day discharge program with my midwives rather than the usual 10day as i told them how crappy I feel. But this freaks me out on itself- I've got about 3 more appointments and I'll never see them again - I don't do well with change generally especially a change in people. I get they aren't my friends etc but I don't want to lose them
I've got health visitor tomorrow and my midwife has spoken to them and made them aware
I don't want to be a bad mum to my little bean, she is perfect and doesn't deserve a dud for a mum 😔

No advice really but I didn't want to read and run. I'm sure you're doing a fantastic job. You got this! How did the health visitor go?? You can continue to visit them in most areas if you make appointments for a weigh in etc. Even if its just for a chat.
Try and get out of the house and talk to other mums. I took my ds to a toddler group from about 4 weeks old. Just for the company, is that an option?
Keep your chin up. Sure you're being a wonderful mum.
Sending .

Thanks hun, health visitor went well-she is going to come regularly once midwives finished to bridge the gap of care finishing.
Meeting up with some of the Nct girls on Friday and will go to the baby group I was going to before (is a bumps and babies group)
Hopefully things will start to improve soon

You're definitely not a dud, and it's completely normal to feel a bit flat after giving birth - but keep an eye on it and ask for help if it carries on or you start to feel worse, as there is lots of help available via your GP or health visitor for post-natal depression.