Is this a 'normal' level of anxiety?

[Twitchett22]

I've always been a very chilled out person, very level headed and calm, even throughout my pregnancy and birth, despite things not going to plan and turning into an emergency with no medical help available.
However, since having DD 4 weeks ago I am the complete opposite. I know its normal to worry about your baby, especially when they're so new. But I've found little things like her screaming through her bottle on just one feed, or her nappy exploding and having no nappys with me AFTER I've changed her makes me really anxious and upset.
For example today the said nappy explosion happened while we were out. I had a change of clothes for her and cleaned her up, but she kept pooing so in the end I used 4 nappys. So after I'd put the last clean one on her I had no more with me. And all I could think about was getting home because it was worrying me that she didn't have anymore nappys or another change of clothes. I felt stressed the whole way home and even had a little cry because I felt like a shit unorganised mum.
Same happened the other day when she screamed all through her bottle which is unusual for her. I cried because I didn't know what was wrong and if I should be doing anything about it.
Also we were shopping the other day and got caught in a torrential downpour, DD was dry in her car seat but I felt so stressed because her blanket was wet and I was wet and the pram was wet, I was just so anxious to get her home even though she was warm and dry and happy.
Is this just normal new mum anxiety? I keep telling myself to get a grip but obviously I am completely responsible for her and I worry that if I miss something with her it will be my fault. Also hoping my hormones are playing a big part too. Luckily DP is great.
Sorry for the long post, just wondered if anyone has had the same or have any techniques for me to chill out a bit.
Thanks

I think that all sounds very normal. Especially the bit about going through nappies really quickly and then panicking because you don't have any more!

Obviously keep an eye on your feelings, but it is totally overwhelming being totally responsible for another helpless person.

Congratulations

It's so stressful and overwhelming to have a brand new human being that depends on you entirely! Or it can be anyway! Especially with first baby but with subsequent babies too. I would say you sound like you are doing a brilliant job, keep going, try to relax about things, it will come in time. My first was about 6 months before I chilled out a bit though!

After both of my boys were born I had hightened anxiety. For me it lasted probably 6-8 months and then disappeared, so please don't worry that this hightened - and exhausting - state is permanent, chances are it's temporary.

As PP said, keep an eye on it, identify it for what it is, avoid specific triggers if you can (I had to say no to a lot of soft play invites with my toddler while DS2 was new).

Becoming a mum is a huge & sometimes overwhelming process.
You're doing great

Thank you all, i know I'm being ridiculous when i get upset over things but it's so overwhelming having someone else solely depend on you, i don't think you can ever plan for how scary it is!
You've all made me feel better though so thanks

I remember having high levels of anxiety pp, I can't remember specifics but I just felt guilty the while time we were out (say he was sleeping peacefully in a nice pub during the day) I was upset i'd "put him in a position where he could perhaps wake and be sad or where the noise was too much. I was desperate to get him home to "safety". The anxiety ran a little deeper than I can explain even now and I remember wondering what on earth was wrong with me. It definitely passed by 12 weeks. I'd actually forgotten about it until now!

It sounds like you're doing a great job hope these feelings pass soon

Well done for being out and about so soon! I think I wasn't really able to be organised and leave the house (without DH) until baby was at least 6 weeks old. You sound like you're doing well and I think your anxiety will settle as baby gets a bit bigger

I love being out with her but eventually i just get this feeling that i need to be home with her. I think your right pp, it's getting her to 'safety'. I dont think I'll ever be as chilled as I used to be but i guess thats ok!