Feeling low

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I suffered really bad with post natal depression and anxiety with my first, he's not 18 months old, I took my self of my medication when he was 6 months and have masked how I'm feeling ever since ( I only took myself of my medication as every time I saw gp or health visitor etc I felt like they were judging me).
I've just had my second she 2 weeks old and I love her to bits and would anything for her but I'm struggling, some times I wish I never had another baby and I no that's horrible and selfish of me to say but that how I feel, I can't be honest about the way I feel to anyone as everyone seems to think I'm coping so well this time so I fake a smile and get on with it when in actual fact I'm so miserable and unhappy.
My partner is no help at all, with my first he was brilliant but this time round he won't do anything with her. He's changed her bum twice that's it, says he doesn't like doing it because she's a girl, I've done all the night feeds I'm so exhausted, I've done all the bathing dressing feeding the lot as well as caring for my little boy as well, I feel like screaming at him but it won't get me anywhere.
I don't no what to do I don't want to admit I'm struggling and have people look down there noses at me but at the same time I can't continue to feel like this it's not fair, I've had such a bad headache for days cuz I'm overthinking everything

I've been there op. Some of the low mood is normal and linked to hormones. But cAn you speak to a family member and a healthcare professional to get some support? You aren't in your own.

I can't speak to family I don't feel comfortable I could make a appointment with doctor but then everyone would no I'm struggling

Bumping for you

I feel your pain, I’m a first time Mum and am coming to terms with pnd. Depression is and evil thing, I have suffered with it for as long as I can remember.

We all want to look and feel like the “perfect” Mum! Trying to cope with everything when in reality I don’t think any woman does, I just think some women keep it to them selves or hide it. Non of my “mummy” friends told me how hard this is until now!! Thanks!

We all have struggles and it’s nothing to be ashamed of. You’ve dedicated your body to bringing two children into this world, so time to put yourself first and look after you and your mental health!! F**k what anyone else thinks! The sooner you’ve start getting help and are on the up the sooner you will enjoy being a Mum again.

Remember depression is an illness. If someone went to the Drs and got antibiotics for an infection would anyone judge? No! So why should they when it’s for depression!?

As for the husband, you need to talk to him. I don’t know you, him or your relationship, but communication is key.

Wishing you the best of luck.

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