I had a baby 10 months ago...I had the baby blues like most people but I felt really distant for about a few weeks, like I wasn't really there, I just put it down to having a traumatic birth, it was three days long and I was breastfeeding so only ever sleeping for an hour at a time so I assumed that was the cause for me feeling distant and crying, that soon went away and I was fine for a while...then about 2 months ago I started to really worry about my health (I always have done, I have a fear of dying) which resulted in me having panic attacks for about 2 weeks, I've had them before so I know what to do to control it and make it go, so they stopped and now I feel better, I just can't shake this feeling of always wanting my fiancé here, when he's at work I just always wish he was here, I still have fun with my daughter and love her to pieces, I just find myself waiting around for his days off...or when he will finish early, he works late nights till 11 so I hardly see him, could it just be that because he's not home often so I'm missing him or do you think it's something to do with my anxiety? I still have lots of fun without him but even when he is here, I don't feel overly happy, I just wait for his days off so I can feel the same/worse, our relationship ended for a month back in June and he slept with someone else 
this has kind of stemmed from that