I'm a mess

[LifeBeginsNow]

I'm having a rough time tonight. My pain has gone through the roof again as a result of SPD (5 and a half months PP). I'm trying to wean off amiltriptaline which may be the reason the pain feels worse. I've caved and topped up my dose now. I've even had a Valium as I can't stop crying.

I really can't understand what I've done to deserve this pain. I spasm whenever I get anxious and when I'm lying down so I'm starting to dread bedtime. I've tried sleeping so many times tonight but have to keep getting back up.

Why couldn't my SPD disappear after my baby was born?

To top it off the pain is now shooting up my urethra and giving me an electric shock type feeling.

I keep telling myself I'm getting better as there is a massive improvement to where I was but I'm still not myself and I struggle to do most things. I've just learnt to grit my teeth and get on with it.

I've got nobody to talk to tonight and am just getting myself into a state.

Hi. Hope that the tablets have kicked in...please book to see your doctor in the morning...or phone NHS24 if you are unable to get relief tonight. It will pass. If you can get into a comfy position and get some sleep, difficult I know...

I'm in bed again but it's so uncomfortable. I feel tired but it's just not happening :-(

Sending you lots of sympathy.. I know it's crap..nights are always the worst..an hour feels twice as long..but it will pass.. phone nhs24 to talk to a professional about if there is anything else you can do / take.. get some comfort TV / movie / music and try and distract/ pass the time.