Not sure if I have PND or not or whether it's just due to having 2 little ones. Some days (like today) I feel so normal and wonder what I'm fussed about, others I feel terrible. I have a 6 month old and a 3yr old. I don't feel as foggy headed as I did for the first 6 months postpartum and I am getting up and out every day, my energy levels are generally good actually, but I cry nearly every day, have terrible mood swings, sometimes I suddenly feel incredibly irritated or angry and feel like screaming, sometimes can't make a decision (DH asking whether to buy fish or chicken for tea stresses me out) and I am also convinced that I am a rubbish parent to my 3yr old - he has always been quite difficult and even though DH and I have developed our own strategies to deal with his behaviour, my parents (who live far away and only see him briefly 4/5 times a year) sat me down when I was heavily pregnant with DS2 (they were staying one night, DS1 was ill and cranky) and told me his behaviour wasn't normal (he'd thrown a toy) and I should be doing this, this and this - mainly following supernanny. I had said no we don't throw toys, put the toy away and distracted him with something else. My dad has always been very critical (under the guise of helping) and I did have it out with them a few weeks later but I just can't get it out of my head - like its planted a seed. On good days I just think what a load of rubbish, on bad days i play it over and over - it's almost obsessive - and I'm now constantly doubting myself as a parent. I think it may be hormones/PND contributing. Not sure. But I just want to get back to normal now!