Dd3 was ten weeks early and born three weeks ago by emergency c section. She was in neonatal until the weekend, when they moved her back to our local hospital SCBU.
I was discharged on day 5 and haven't seen a midwife or anyone for my recovery since leaving hospital. I'm not too worried physically, my tummy is still a bit sore but I am managing.
However, I am becoming increasingly weepy and the longing to bring my baby girl home is so strong I cry every time I leave the unit. I can't be there all the time, I have four other children and they need me too. I feel so guilty everytime I go to the hospital, and I feel terrible when I leave. I am finding it hard to get up in the morning and hard to keep smiling everytime anyone asks me how the baby is. She is doing so well, but she isn't home, and probably won't be for several weeks.
I just want this nightmare to end.