Am I going backwards?

[Becky5W]

Hi,
I was diagnosed with PND when my lg was 4 months old. She is now 19 months and I feel like I'm going backwards. I love her so much yet I feel like I'm always shouting at her. I'm shattered all of the time. I feel like people are watching me with her.. I'm very close to my mum and grandma but my grandma always seems as if she disapproves with what I do.. If she starts opening her cupboards etc I say no to my lg and my grandma sighs at me. My grandma has some objects which are in a box (like a small lucky duck and a badge etc) that my grandma jokes they are lucky.. She gives them to my lg when I say not to as the badge has a pin on it and the other objects are small, again my grandma sighs or rolls her eyes at me. I love my grandma very much and it hurts that I'm even writing this but it honestly feels like I can't do anything right. Yet my sister with her 14 month lg never seems to get that reaction from her. My husband tells me that I over react with my lg but I just tell her no when I feel I need to and I always praise her when she does something good. I feel useless and I worry that I'm suffering again from a type of depression. I really don't want to see the doctor as I don't want to go back on any tablets. Can anyone give me any help?

Can anyone help?

I'm 2 months post-natal and don't have PND but feel constantly judged by everyone!! I think it feels even worse around my mum because I really care about her opinion.

Older generations do seem far more chilled about situations we would consider to be potential safety hazards. I think we're so bombarded with advice from day one that we can't help but calculate the risk in every situation.

I sometimes think about my Gran, raising her 6 children in a 2 bedroom house, fag in one hand and Breast feeding with the other and imagine she's looking down on me thinking I've gone COMPLETELY MENTAL!!

(Actually... I think I probably have!)

So to answer your question, I think feeling critised by others is quite normal, but if it's making you feel depressed or isolated that's another thing and maybe you should talk to your health visitor.

Hi

I had this problem with my parents. I couldn't do right for doing wrong in their eyes. In the end I very politely had to tell them, look he's my little boy and I want to do it my way. It caused a bit of friction but it soon settled down.

Do you think you are an anxious person? I know I am, so what may be a big concern for me, someone else may not even bat an eyelid at.

Just tell yourself that you are doing a good job, it sounds like you are a great mum ??