I have extreme nursing aversion towards my oldest son who is five and who I stopped breastfeeding when he was three. I don’t have aversion to my nearly 2 years old whatsoever who I’m still breastfeeding on demand! Does anyone else experience this with another child who you are not breastfeeding? I cannot stand it when I’m breastfeeding and when my eldest makes silly noises and even speaks to me I get annoyed and over stimulated. I can’t stand him touching me or my youngest when I’m breastfeeding. If I don’t have my AirPods to cope with the sensory aversion I have in the past had to physically push him away as it makes me that angry. I turn into a horrible monster which I feel so guilty about and it is seriously effecting our bond. I think it’s more of a noise aversion. Can anyone relate? I’ve tried magnesium supplements not sure if they work. I have thought about stopping bf but I don’t want to if I can avoid this aversion but I cannot keep causing my oldest this separation and hurt.