I feel absolutely heartbroken and awful saying this but I just cannot ‘enjoy’ my beautiful very much wanted and loved baby girl.
She is 5 weeks old and I am breastfeeding - whenever she is awake, she wants feeding even if she last fed 10 minutes ago. If she’s not feeding, she’s screaming and crying so I then find myself trying to do everything I can to just get her back to sleep because ‘wake windows’ and interacting with her with all these wonderful things people say I should be doing just can’t happen. She absolutely hates being put down for sleep during the day so I spend most of the time letting her contact nap with fear moving her will wake her up and the cycle repeats. I have ordered a wrap sling which I am hoping will help me just be able to move around the house better. She is better at night time but I think that’s because she’s worn herself out that much during the day.
Now, she does suffer with suspected silent reflux (randomly but not consistently sicky in her sleep post feeds) and the HV/GP suspect colic so I’ve brought colief drops Saturday to try and help. They do help her bring up trapped wind but they are such a faff to do - add 4 drops to expressed milk before every feed so I’m using a little syringe to do it however, she’s feeding NONSTOP and I don’t even have time to express on my pump so the little bit of let down I’m getting (1-2oz during the night) is being used for this and not towards a bottle just so I can have a break. I’m making up the drops for every 3rd feed as I’m concerned the back to back feeds will have her having too much of the drops.
I noticed being outside in the pram settles her but as soon as I am inside either home or a coffee shop, all hell brakes loose again so yesterday I ended up walking 11.5KM just to keep her asleep as I could tell she was overtired and today we’ve covered 13KM. I’m aching though as recovering from my section and also hit with a cold/flu so the lack of sleep or more than 20 mins silence isn’t helping much on top of forcing myself out the house for the big walks
All others with babies born a similar time I’m friends with seem to have happy, smiley and content babies yet mine just is just unhappy. It’s as if she absolutely hates me and anything I do for her.
I don’t know what else to do. Has anyone please got anything that works for a suspected colic/angry and unhappy baby. I looked at taking her to one of the osto people but I don’t know if that will actually help. She’s no tongue tie and no dairy allergy.
Ive tried to speak to others around me but everyone is telling me to just formula feed her because she’s clearly not settled from BF. This makes me feel worse as I’ve really done all I can to BF especially after all the anxiety and worries about her arriving due to my delivery that stopping now and moving to formula has me thinking I’ve failed yet again something for my baby. I can’t even bring myself to have any photos with her since we’ve brought her home from hospital with no real reason or logic except I don’t want any.
I’m seriously at breaking point. I just want her to be happy and content and to enjoy everything about her
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5 week old baby - colic - I can’t enjoy her
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hereistopositiveenergy · 09/10/2023 18:46
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