I feel like I just need to get my situation off my chest and see if anyone of you lovely Mumsnetters has been through something similar. Apologies, may be long.
Had a much longed for baby at 39 years old 9 weeks ago. Pregnancy wasn’t great. I developed pregnancy hypertension with some scary episodes and weekly monitoring at the hospital. Birth was fine however and baby lovely.
When I left the hospital my baby hadn’t latched and I developed mastitis and my blood pressure was still high. Never managed to breast feed in the end and saw a lactation consultant when my son was 6 days which is ironically where I think
my problems started. She said he was floppy (was still a bit jaundiced), had a weak suck and no neck. I stupidly go home and put these things into Google and see that my son could have really scary things such as muscle disorders and cerebral palsy.
Ever since then I haven’t been well. I have seen a Private Pediatrician out of despair who said my son was fine, an osteopath who said he was one of the healthiest babies he’s ever seen and he also had his 8 week check at the GP. Told her about my worries and she said he was totally fine and was quite reassuring.
I obsess over my son’s movements, tummy time and development. It’s really badly affecting my relationship with my fiancé who is helpful but says our son is fine and that’s usually end of the discussion.
I’ve started counselling and had a few sessions but honestly still feel my son could be seriously ill. Little things can make me question everything such as today he rolled back his eyes in his head before sleeping or he is sucking on his hands now but usually only the right. My rational mind tells me this is normal baby stuff but the anxiety is just taking over my life.
has anyone been through similar?