Not sure why I feel like this

[RainbowFlowers]

I have a 3 year old and 3 month old. Older son goes to nursery 2.5 days a week as I know I'm not a great multitasker and was preparing for baby to be a bad sleeper like my first. He would only sleep blocks of 1 hour for the first 4 months it was brutal!

Anyway so far maternitt has felt OK in comparison to first one due to him sleeping better and just generally feeling like I know what I'm doing a little more.

But the last week I have had mood swings. I've had days where I've felt very irritable with no patience. Today I am very teary. I just can't seem to pull myself together.

I don't why I'm feeling like this. I've been on the demo for 4 weeks, could be that. Could be that son has an an extra feed for the last week. Could be a build up of issues with my husband.

I miss the routine and structure of toddler groups but I get out to the park as much as I can and meet up with friends too.

I hate feeling like this and don't know what to tackle it as its so hard to work out what feelings are for what. Any minor decisions to make feel so overwhelming.

Bump - feel really low today, hyper sensitive. Everything is overwhelming. Hard not to cry all day.

Hi @RainbowFlowers sorry no experience but didn't want to read and run.

Can you contact your health visitor for support or also to get contact numbers for support? Don't know of any personally but I'm sure there are LOADS of websites and support lines for other women in your position, just do an online search.

I'm sure you're not alone in this and there will be other MN users who relate to your post.

Hope you find the support you're looking for 💐

Hey, reading your message trust me i feel the same most days. I'm a single mum of a hard work, tantrum lover, attitude giver, pushing mums buttons goer but gorgeous funny little 2 year old girl.
I have just signed on this today feeling I'm the worse mum too. Moving back with my parents after being married for 5 years and things not working out. I'm struggling big time as I don't know what I'm doing where I am going and how I'm feeling about anything. I feel I'm not doing a good job whatsoever and sometimes feel my daughter is better off with another family instead of an idiot person like me.
I'm missing the normal routine going to toddler groups and being able to go for my long walks out in the countryside as I used to live in the country now live in a town where it's not the same apart from a canal but nothing like running the fields like Maria from sound of music.
I have my moments where I'm frustrated and take it out on my folks and also my daughter and I hate myself for it. Then I have the teary stage where I feel I can't cope.
All I can say is hang in there, try and find like activities to take them to like the farm or meeting up with another friend with a kid as a play date with the whole social distancing too.
I'm here if you ever need a chat or rant. Just breathe, cry and then carry on. You can do this ok. Take care x

Thanks @keepsmiling89.

That sounds tough @Gem128 ! Yeah I can relate to taking it out in people around me and then feeling awful about it. I just feel ultra sensitive. Like things that would normally mildy disappoint me are sending me under.
I feel like its such a hard balance to get out and be busy and giving myself a break and just have a slower pace. That's where going to toddler groups helped as I wasn't constantly having to decide on how much to do, I just knew what I was planning on doing each week. Thanks so much for your offer of support and same to you. 💚