I have been admitted to hospital with blood clots. Came in last night and told I could go home, then I couldn't. Told I can go home today now I can't. Have now been told tomorrow but I bet it won't be.
I want to go home. I know my baby will have forgotten me when (if) I go home. He'll have a lovely time bonding with his dad and sisters and just forget me. Not that it matters.
I'm so sad. Pregnancy was horrendous ending in emergency c section, my baby was jaundiced and not feeding and needed tests so we were in hospital for 5 days. He was readmitted once for not feeding.
Finally that is sorted but now I'm in hospital and don't even have my baby. I'm allowed one visitor but don't have anymore.
I can feel this crushing depression taking hold. I had PND with my first and I am worried it's going to happen again. I feel so shit.
My little boy is only 3 weeks and me fucking off when he's so little will probably affect him long term.
I have tried talking to my husband but he doesn't get it, probably because he's bonding with his son.
I just want to go home. I just want to shake the feeling of being so sad and feeling like the shitest mum ever.