Am I still postnatal does it last this long?

[Vikkie12]

I am really struggling! I had a rough pregnancy and then my sons farthe left when he was 4 weeks old has never been in touch and I dont claim csa.
I got perinatal depression whilst pregnant and couldnt attach to my growing bump or be excited for his arrival. When he was born I hated him. I had councilling and support from family and a couple of friends.
My son has just turned one and just does not sleep and I feel like I just have no connection with him. He can go to sleep at midnight wake at 1 for a bottle then be up at 4am and not go back to sleep untill 10am. He doesnt have an afternoon nap. I work 3 days and go to uni 1 day. Some days i could burst with pride other days i feel so empty. Am i just tired? Am I still struggling with postnatal depression? Is it worth seeking help again as I felt the councilling just did not work. Someone please tell me this gets easier.

I would definitely seek further help. Have you told your health visitor how you're feeling? There are different types of counselling you can try and also medications. Being tired and overwhelmed is most likely feeding the thought and feelings you're experiencing but there is help and support available. Don't be afraid to ask and don't be put off my your previous counselling experience. There is no one size fits all when it comes to mental health x