PND

[Mum7b]

Hi all just looking for some advice I had a planned c section in January (due to a horrendous emcs previous where both baby and I nearly died and then was told I would die if I further pregnancies) the delivery went well but baby was ill and and taken to scubu for 3 days I was sent home after 4 days with an in dwelling catheter which caused an horrendous infection and I was re admitted to hospital a day after returning home for iv antibiotics. Over the last 4 months I have continued to be in and out of hospital for for further antibiotics and treatments due to hospital acquired infections where I have nearly died and also been treated for sepsis. So my mood has been up and down continually and in the back of head I hear the drs words telling me I am going to die my anxiety is through the roof but I feel sad too not sure why but I don't feel like me but I do love my little boy very much in fact he is the only thing that can really make me smile. But I feel anxious sad tired scared nervous low sex drive which I have never had before not much interest in things and I can't really cope with being out o pit on a brave face and I go because I have too but I am panicking to get home. I am not sure if it's PND or not ? Can any one advise everything I look at seems to say the relationship with baby sometimes isn't there but that isn't the case ?

Hia :) sorry to hear you've had a terrible time. I think maybe go and speak to your gp about how you're feeling. Hope you're okay x

It comes in all shapes and sizes. So don't worry about a definition you've read online.

You've had an incredibly hard time of it but it sounds as though you're doing really well. Speak with your GP, they can advise you further and support you.

You don't need to suffer alone on this though, chat to them and see what they say. X

I’ve had a birth like yours , drip induction put to sleep for emcs baby and me nearly died , then hemmorage and infection in hosp for a week and same as you sent home with catheter which caused another infection . My baby’s 10 weeks old an I still feel shit about it and worried I have PND . Feel like I’ve been constantly ill for the first months of his life an am now on round two of mastitis. Teary most days. Seeing my mum when my partner is at work is what helps me or just anyone who’s supportive. Just keep an eye on your mood I’ve just referred myself for some counselling through the well-being service. I can’t give much advice but just know your not alone

It does sound like P D but also sounds like you need support dealing with a trauma. PTSD wouldn't surprise me after all you have been through. See your GP and ask to be referred to the perinatal mental health team. Hope you feel better soon