How can I enjoy free time??

[Mosret]

I have a 10 week old with colic and reflux. I've barely slept in 10 weeks and feel like crap.
I love her so much and hate being separated from her but everyone keeps saying i need a break and take help when I can.
So DH has brought her out for the day to give me a break. But I've been sitting here crying for 2 hours because I'm so tired but I can't sleep. I also don't want to sleep because I want to do something nice with my day off. But I'm too tired to move. Besides, no one is around because I haven't been free for 10 weeks so can't suddenly try and arrange something. I also feel strange being apart from her so I don't enjoy doing anything. But at least it's quiet, so that's something...

How about a long shower or bath? I know lots of people suggest that but there is something soothing about water.
You can download audio books for free if you’re a member of a library and have the Overdrive app. You could lie down and listen to a book for a while.
Listento some nice soothing music.
Have a cup of tea in your garden if you have one.
Watch something on Netflix or tv.

Go and get in the bath/shower, put some fresh pjs on and watch a film with a hot cup of tea/coffee.

My dd had silent reflux and cow's milk allergy so know exactly what you mean! I could never sleep when given time for it and was never able to relax properly. During a very rare break I tended to start doing one thing eg start reading a book then suddenly jumping up and deciding to put some washing on etc. As I had the opportunity. How about watching the telly for a bit? Cup of tea? Just enjoy a break from the screaming and swaying!

Thanks everyone. I'll try some of those suggestions DayKay and WooYa
I just get this panicky feeling when I try to relax and start thinking they'll be back before I know it and I won't be refreshed and will have wasted the opportunity. Yes seven201 that's exactly It, i keep doing housework... must relax!

I know how you feel but a cup of tea is nicer for you than cleaning up. You can't pour from an empty cup

I know how you feel. My LO is now 16 weeks. I'm slightly better now but still have that feeling. My sleep is not much better. It's so hard to just "switch off". Not much advice but I understand what you're going through x

Yep I was the same!

If I had free time I’d worry about sleep/ not sleeping/ chores I really needed to do/ catch up on programs I’d missed/ texting back friends I’d forgotten to text back too.

Would you go for a massage??

I chose to get out of the house as I knew I wouldn’t sleep. I know this is cliche but I’d book a spa day myself have a massage and pass out in my robe somewhere where warm!

Plan a proper ‘relax day’

Ok I've had tea and nice long shower and cleaned the bathroom. I feel a bit better thank you. I think next time I'll try and plan something in advance, good idea about the massage optimus, and I actually have a voucher since Christmas!