Help😞

[Mammystore118]

Hi I’m unsure if this is aloud but I need advice or to talk to someone. I’m scared I don’t know why or how I’ve getting like this but I’m so scared! I feel like I don’t want to get out of bed in the morning because of what kind of day I’m going to have or I can’t seem to pull myself out of bed but I have a 2 year old and i need to do my mammy duties. I once was a happy cheerful, bubbly girl I wasn’t afraid of anything. I could hold a conversation with anybody and now I’ve lost myself I hide myself away. I have dark thoughts, scary thoughts and I question do I really want to be here? It’s like the devil in my ear telling me to do something but I don’t want to it’s so scary. Of course I want to be here I have my whole life ahead of me I’m 21 years old. My son needs me. But why am I feeling like this? I keep myself to myself I have a house to run, I work. But somehow I feel like the whole world is upside down and everything is crumbling around me. I feel like I’m stuck in a bubble and I can’t get out. I want to be my old self but I’m afraid I’ve lost the old me? Am I going to be like this for the rest of my life? Yes I have been to the doctors and they wanted to prescribe me something for depression. I refused it because I thought I could get through it all by myself without medication however since last seeing the doctor things are getting worse I didn’t feel as bad as I do now. I’m sorry this is so long but there’s a lot more things I could talk about but it would be an essay of what I’m feeling. Has anyone experienced this? Or experiencing? How are you coping with it? Any advice to over come it?

Hi, I'm sorry I don't have much advice to give you but I didn't want you to go unanswered. So sorry you are feeling like this, has it been since you had your little one or more recently? xx

Thank you so much for the reply much appreciated, and I’m unsure I’d say more so now. Worse feeling in the world😞 just want to be more happy for my little boy xx

I didn't want to leave your post unanswered but can't really offer much advice beyond suggesting that you go back to the doctors and get whatever help they can offer. You are clearly a great mum to be trying to sort this out for yourself and your son. You have already been incredibly brave to go to your doctor and to post here. It will be tough but you have proved that you can do it. Also, I've seen similar, very supportive threads elsewhere on MN. I think the postnatal clubs can be pretty quiet. You might want to ask for this to be moved or post again somewhere busier to get more support. Lots of mums on here feel - or have felt - like you and help is available

Poor poor you.

You sound like a very loving and caring mother.

If it's any consolation, post-natal anxiety and post-natal depression are much more common than you'd think - apparently it's about 1 in 5 nowadays.

I think you should go back to the doctor and tell them that things are feeling worse. They can help so much - with medication and other things eg talking therapy or group therapy (both of which I found brilliant). And medication can make a whole world of difference - and often you only need to take it for a couple/few months.

Things will get better. Peaks and troughs maybe, but they'll certainly improve.

I hope you feel better very soon. Please report back if you feel like it - even if it's just because you want a virtual hug

Also, just seen this

You so clearly want to do the best for your DS, so please go back to your doctor and accept his/her advice. Honestly, mental heath is no different from physical health - if you were asthmatic you'd accept an inhaler, if you were diabetic you'd take insulin - medication can be hugely beneficial in your situation.