Last night it took me until 4am to settle my baby. He is breastfed so he wanted to feed a lot. Anyway he finally got settled and I put him in his cot and I tried to get some sleep before he wakes. I set my alarm for 5:30 to check on him. Anyway next thing I knew I woke up at about 7:45 with him asleep next to me in my bed. I'm worried sick because I don't remember my alarm going off, I don't remember getting him from his cot and I don't remember putting my breasts near him to feed. How can I do all that and not remember. I don't even remember him crying. He has his blanket over him in my bed as well and his cot was pulled closer to my bed so I must have got him out and put him in my bed. I have OCD so now my mind is racing with horrible thoughts. What if I hurt him and not remember? What if I acted out my bad dreams on him? What if I shook him in my sleep and he was not Conscious and that's why I didn't hear him try or remember feeding him? He is fine, and is feeding and seems fine but my mind is racing because I can't remember anything. It's probably because of the lack of sleep. I'm trying to remember last night but no.
I'm not on any medication, I don't smoke and I don't drink so none of this has affected me or anything. It's the lack of sleep. Would I know if some thing bad happened?