VQ Well done to the valiumprince! Hopefully you have turned a corner with the sleepings now!
I was incredibly moved by what you said a couple of pages back, but didn't get a chance to post at the time. Having a baby can be such a complicated time emotionally and it is very rarely acknowledged. When it is, it is invariably shoved under the banner of pnd and I am not sure that is always helpful. Your ability to articulate these emotions is close to a gift vq and I think that many of us gain more from your expression than you could ever imagine. Well done for being so fucking awesome. I respect you enormously, but I think you already knew that 
PR Sorry to hear that illness still plagues the petite household. It should just fuck off 
You really do deserve a break, ffs.
Your blog post was predictably ace, btw. Write more!
detective Is it wrong that I now have visions of vq and pr chasing you around to the sound of the Benny Hill music?
chasing The quiche is extremely wise and has said most of what I would have done. I would totally reiterate the need to keep talking though, here or RL. I found that emptying my head of these thoughts came with the physical expression of them; keeping them internalised was what made them feel insurmountable. One other thing- you mentioned that you had taken these anti-d before and been ok on them. Bear in mind that your body chemistry has changed since you got pregnant. They may not suit you anymore.
Sorry for anyone who has had a crappy night. I guess we all thought when were pregnant that it would be plain sailing at this point 