hello lovely ladies.
Thanks for thinking of me - sorry to have been AWOL. Things just seem to be busy at the moment and with Phoebe's refusal to do anything I want her to, including sleep, day or night, I'm so weary of an evening that all I want to do is hit the sack.
It's a bit of a mini-post too, as my hayfever is on overdrive today, so my eyes aren't really up to looking at a screen. Gosh I sound like a misery! I really am fine at the moment
I'm struggling with P but managing to keep in a separate box in my head, so I can see that parenting is a struggle, but it's not affecting every bit of life and my mood is pretty fine
. hurrah for happy pills!
I've been lurking when I can, but can't remember everything
but I can remember sybs having a hard time with L. You're right, my L and I have had a rocky road over the past couple of years, with behaviour that sounds like we had; shouting, stomping off, kicking doors, tears at every opportunity...Anyway, over the past few months she has really calmed down. Not sure what has changed, so maybe it's just age (she turns 7 in a few weeks), but she is definitely more reasonable and more able to listen and accept things than she was. It was a long phase with her - I think it started with P being born - but the balance has tipped now, and I would say she's the easier one of the two now. Or maybe, it's just that P is such a monster that, in comparison, L is like an angel
Anyway, things will get better. I had a lightbulb moment the other week - I was in one of my sessions with the psychologist and we were reviewing some of the 'homework' I'd done. I have to write down when I've had a negative response to something, then analyse it, looking at evidence for and against my thoughts, and trying to come up with am alternative, balanced thought. Anyway I always find it hard to do in the heat of the moment, but then later I sit down and sort my head out. The psycholoist said it's hard to think rationally at the time, because the emotion of the situation completely overpowers the rational mind, and therefore I sometimes have to wait for the emotion to die down before I can get the logical brain to work. So it made me think that sometimes I'm expecting L to switch off her emotion and listen and respond rationally to what I'm saying, whereas she must also need time to let the emotion 'happen', then after she's cooled off, then try to resolve whatever the issue is. If I can't do it, then it's daft of me to expect a 6 year old to be able to!
Right my eyes are stinging. Ouch.
I'll try to keep up a bit more now!
xxx