I am waiting to hear from this social work MA course I applied for.
I REALLY want to do it - it would solve my entire world's problems; being on benefits, no money, no prospects... the whole lot
BUT, as a Christian who is trying to reignite her faith, I am leaning towards the "You're in control" thinking... but am struggling, tbh.
IF I don't get it, does that mean it ain't for me in the big picture in the sky, or does it mean I didn't perform well enough on the day?
and if it doesn't happen - what on earth IS the plan for my life? I can't bum along on benefits any more... it's ruining me.
I am just struggling with the "everything happens for a reason and He has your life in His hands" thing atm.....
sorry for rambling