This must be a question that lots of people must think about. I am a lapsed catholic and not REALLY sure if i 100% believe in all this twaddle about God creating the world in seven days. Not when the evidence so solidly points towards Darwin and his theory of evolution. But then, when you look at how complex even the simplist organisms are, how complex a single protein is, even a strand of DNA is complex and that is supposed to be the "starting point" of a human being/fuit fly/mouse etc. All those chemicals just forming together to create life to me, defies the laws of physics. One of the laws of thermodynamics states that "The entropy of the universe (or any system for that matter) moves towards maximum disorder". I think that is also known as chaos theory. This basically means, that molecules, particles, etc will within a defined system will just drift etc until there is maximum chaos or disorder. I like to think of my DDs bedroom along those lines. Unless energy is applied to a system then no order will occur, no atomic, molecular bonds will be created, let alone come together to form an organism - and then to think of human life and my mind is spaghetti. There has to be energy input but, the second law of thermodynamics states "energy can neither be created or destroyed" meaning that energy can only be transfered from one form to another. Ie potential or stored energy, into kenetic (movement) energy into heat, noise etc. But where did the original energy come from.
Even if you believe that we are the result of some Big bang, which i don't, where did the "stuff" come from that created the conditions for a big bang and how can it all be a fecking coincidence anyway. It just can't be, there has to be a greater force - there has to be a God surely. But it goes back to the same - Who or what created God. What is the real evidence that there is some benevolent being subtly guiding our progress?
I want to believe in God, in fact it upsets me that i struggle with it. I want to raise my daughter as a catholic but what i tried to convey above, not very clearly plays on my mind. If i were God, would i make things so complicated? Its fallable, which i thought God wasn't meant to be. Cancer is a result of when our bodies fail to decipher our genetic code, ok this can be caused by external influence which you might argue is man made, but not always,sometimes, spontaneous mutations occur in the wrong bit of DNA, its not picked up by the cells proof reading machinery and bang, your fucked. Viruses - they are primitive forms of life, they hijack us to replicate themselves and we get sick, they are clearly an abberation - in all of the things that people argue against a god, Disease, war etc, the argument i have always heard is that we are given free choice and as a world we have made some pretty bad choices and reap what we sow so to speak, but viruses are too random for that HIV is not some punishment from god, any more than the flu is.
I know very little about religeon, but i imagine that those of you who make it your business to know, who have studied theology must have some thoughts on this, you must do??
I would really like to be able to reason this out - love to hear some thoughts on this, if i have made any sense AT ALL??
Thank you in advance
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