I’m 43 and I have been having an affair for a good few year with a man who is 67
he came to my house employed by my mom and that it started and also he meets his woman.
im also single and jobless and I looked forward to seeing him wearing something pretty in the hopes he likes me more. But it Always our meetings were brief and whatever he wants
over time I realised he was a skilled player always says don’t get feeling s for me but he knew that I loved him
he Was full of lies one stage I even blocked and he won me around with a present and we were back on.
over time he got worse even sparks of cruelty. I try to stand up for myself and he said he was going to get me a present .and I was so happy for my birthday
he reneged he was also mean about that.
so I stood up to him.
I knew he had other woman but he really liked this other woman and bought a gold broach he accidentally slipped once.
but the war rage in my heart be even tried to use me and I was desperate for answers
why not me ? Why am I not worthy?
im
so desperate that I sought out the assistance of the fortune teller who provided me with great insight to him.
mine of them even recognised him and she looked a bit shook
they all send in a unison.
he is toxic , block
and dump him he is a narcissist. You won’t get a present he did like you bit you mother would be hurt by this . He only cares for himself
and they meant it too
i actually think they were looking out for me they could see more than I know one of admit just before your birthday he gave a another woman a pair of gold earrings
well that made furious
so when I seen him again he was furious and so was I and I said when you were in the shop why couldn’t you not get me something aswell as buying them something
all of this made my heart bitter and cold and furious even without knowing all this my heart was still broken
I was even tempted to get back at him but I never wanted to go road but was tempted.
i even met a lady I knew by chance she is very holy and I told her a little about the story but nothing about the fortunes tellers as she would be frightened
she knows more about those things and their power
she said to me
”that anything that he gives you would have been special because it came from him and when he didn’t it was a slap on the heart.
I said I could cause chaos to him and she said that is what the enemy wants
I was touched by that
it was never about the present it was him doing something nice for a chance and that hope is gone and I lashed out
weeks rolled by and after new years he reached out to me
i figured he was trying to use me again
so I play along with him and then I screamed to him and I am ashamed at myself for the lack of present
i could tell in his voice the phone sounded different he just mumbled I understand .
20 mins later he comes to my door all shook up he look different I sort try to explain why but he then said that he wanted to part on good terms with me
he is not well and has been diagnosed with diabetes and that he has more tests to complete
I cried and so did he we did make up as friends but I note no present but it did take a lot for him to come
if he didn’t come to my door to .
I would have carried that dreaded bitterness in my heart. And I don’t want that.
if he had given me the present in the first place I might not have gone to extreme lengths to gather my thoughts for him.
however I was I’m think would have as I was desperate to know things.
I do think that some of the knowledge that I sought made me very angry towards him and while the ladies that I seen that I believe were nice and were to protect me from him
we don’t really know what kind of forces up there
i feel I need to consult my prist for confession
and also I’m not sure what do with him
in all of this I believe my soul and my heart are my number 1
smd I want do right by it also
he is sick now but hopefully he get better or isn’t as bad as he thinks and I am sad for him.
I also believe that he never will get me in what I want or I just hope it wants to treat me a lot more kinder
but I know everyone says dump and block and I understand that but a big part of me knows that if I do that I never hear from him again and I’m not sure my heart can take that
i also love him aswell and not sure if I can just let go the people said he knows he has you and he did that do the others to hook them in
snd I feel anything he got me would have been tainted