Hello,
I was at mass the other day and the priest sneezed directly on the holy communion. I panicked and did not want to be disrespectful, so I took it. I am always cautious of germs and a little ott at times, when sickness is involved. Without thinking, I placed the communion in the bin. I never once thought that I was placing the "Holy Spirit", in the bin, I only thought of the germs and that it was contaminated food. I left pleased with myself that I had avoided the germs, in a mannerly fashion.
However, upon reflection and talking with a friend, I realised what I had done, was completely blasphemous and disrespectful. I am now eaten with guilt. I returned to the bin and even searched through it with a glove, getting a lot more germs that I would have from the communion-KARMA. I could only locate a small part, which I returned to the church, confessing my sins with a note.
I also confessed to God and lit a candle explaining and praying for forgiveness. I also outlined what I had done to the priest.
I am no eaten with guilt. I would never EVER intentionally disrespect God.
Am I doomed?