just typed out a long detailed post and it’s got deleted.
someone mentioned it to me three years ago. I’ve gone cold turkey a few times since then and always get sucked back in when I am feeling low and need it for reassurance.
(it entails basically asking about a decision/topic and doing a cast.)
then before I know it, it escalates to running all big life decisions by it. What I should do in the next years, who I should have in my life. Casting multiple times a day.
once I’ve done the divination on a particular thing, it sort of taints the decision forever so I somehow can’t come back to the topic without the influence of it.
the answers are both detailed and vague so it feels like a profound fit but there is always that nag of then wanting to divine more.
the divination system is so accessible it’s impossible to bar myself from access to it, if you see what I mean.
when i am in a ‘divining’ phase it feels unsafe to live life without it
when I’ve gone cold turkey, I’m ruing some of the things I’ve either done or missed out on because of the divination advice about them. When I’m back in the divining phase, like now, I rationalise that the divination was right all along, or that I failed to interpret it correctly.
I feel fed up about it all yet find it impossible to break away.