tentative steps into chritsianity - is this the start of something?

[bojangles]

I was bought up in the Church but stopped going through my teens and twenties. Recently I have become increasingly drawn to going back to chuirch. I have started a course at the Local Methodist Chruch and have been really enjoying it. Up until now this was mainly based on the support of the other Mums and I had kind of skimmed over the relgion bits.

I feel very much that I am on a personal journey and have been for the last 2 years or so. Since having my two DC's I have struggled more with my own sense of being and the adjustments that have to be made to having young children.

After the group last night I prayed - I haven't done that for a very long time. In my own way I kind of said "ok God I'll give you a chance, no guarantees etc but I suspect you might have been whispering in my ear for a while now, so can you help me to be a happier Mum and wife and help me to enjoy my life and have a sense of purpose". It wasn't the most sophisticated prayer but afterwards I felt warm and happy. Now today I have been VERY happy - I noticed the blossom on the trees, had a spring in my step and have really enjoyed my children. I was also quite nice to my husband. So, my question is "has my prayer been answered?" and what do I do now? - it sounds silly but I am kind of embarrased about the whole church thing and I don't really want to talk to my Mum and Dad as they will get all excited thinking "praise God our daughter isn't lost to the Devil!!!". Should I just try praying every night and maybe pitch up at church on Sunday or should I actually try and talk to someone?

Any advice very welcome.

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Keep praying . Go to church if you would like to - but don't expect massive thunderbolts instantly finding a church that would suit you can take a little time. Main thing is - keep talking to God. He is listening and he will always be there. Is it an Alpha or Christianity Explored course you've been doing? If not - look out for one - they are very, very good.
And there is a MN prayer thread too - lots of lovely ladies there who would be happy to pray for you - I will do so right now!

That sounds lovely Bo

That is a lovely post, Bojangles.
I'm sure your parents never thought you were lost to the devil, but they will have known that you would be a lot happier if you listenend to the whispering of God in your ear.
As you are.
Now, I think the first thing you need to do is to thank God that He has 'taken His chance' and given you this new springtime in your life. Have no doubt about it, this is God talking.
And then, keep talking. You already have the experience of things happening when you pray, however unsophisticated you may think that prayer was.
God is as delighted with you as you would be if your own children shared their life with you.
You might like to link to the prayer thread so we can support you in your new found faith.
Every blessing

Link to the prayer thread is here
Cross post with NL

Thank you for your all your comments, thoughts and prayers..DutchOma - I felt very touched by your post. NorthernLurker - the course is called 'Mom 2 Mom' very american but good. I will try the church where the ladies who run the course go and see how I feel.

I will also pop over to the prayer thread.
x

Great post DutchOma.

Lovely story bojangles....