I can’t stop bursting into tears

[Itsmeitscathyivecomehome]

I could do with some support or any words of wisdom.

I’ve always classed myself as religious but only recently I have truly opened my heart and feel so called to Jesus. I have started reading the bible and being more active in going to church. I pray lots.

I keep crying.

I cry when I think what he endured. I cry when I look at the miracles of my children. I cry when I think how unworthy and sinful I am.

I think I am accepting the saviour with all my heart and it feels so overwhelming. That Jesus would die on a cross for me.

Has anyone else felt like this?

Yes this happened to me about 18 years ago when I started going to church. I'd come back crying most weeks and my DH would ask why do I go if it makes me upset?! But I wasn't upset.....it's a very weird feeling.....almost a release. I'd cry during worship and sometimes during the sermon.
The prayer team were amazing and said this is all just cleansing. I found it all very unusual and would think 'why am I the only one blubbing in church?'

I'd also cried reading certain bible passages in the early years.
I really was not expecting any of this!
It does pass but I think it's the spirit just doing it's stuff in you. Enjoy your cleansing!

No. I'm 44 and I've burst into tears a handful of times over my whole life. If your emotions continue to be extreme I'd suggest a trip to the GP.

Please don't assume that your feelings are down to your religious experiences. Or that they will automatically go away. Go and see your GP.

And you are most definitely not "unworthy and sinful. Honestly you're not!

@peachescariad this sounds exactly like what I’m experiencing. I don’t feel unstable or anything just really emotional about the sacrifice Jesus made. It’s almost just like you describe - like a relief, a release. Thank you for commenting x

@TealSapphire thanks for your comment. I don’t feel extreme but I can appreciate it might sound that way from my post. I just feel emotional. I don’t think I need to see a GP but thank you for you advice.

Whatever reason has led you this religious moment, it is likely that it's allowing you to express all the emotions and feelings that you've bottled up for years. Being in the environment that you see as a safe place, you've been able to let all that you've had locked up inside you from trauma, loss, hurt, sadness, anger - it's catharsis.

If you feel that your church is able to support you through this process fully, then great. But it's still fine to seek secular support as well, especially if there's a load of trauma baggage. Otherwise, once the initial honeymoon period wears off with daily life and familiarity, it's common for doubts to creep back in, 'Why don't I feel that same joy? Why am I still unhappy? Why couldn't I feel it when all around me seemed to?' (when it's because of a crappy job, poor relationship, being ill, etc) and you could question your faith when it could be something medical.

Are your tears due to joy and gratitude at the beauty of the miracles that are your children, and of Jesus's birth, death and resurrection and the forgiveness that comes with all that? Or are your tears from a sad place?

Could you be pregnant?

Pregnancy makes me feel everything 10x more intensely and crying gives you an emotional release so it's a nice feeling to feel things deeply like that.

It sounds like you are not feeling bad going so just continue if it makes you happy.

@Itsmeitscathyivecomehome and @peachescariad what you have described is not rare. I think maybe it comes from a place where we just do not have the words to express how deeply and profoundly we feel beauty and sacrifice ... God knows. ((( hugs ))) 💐

I'm not at all religious, but I love going into churches and cathedrals and always end up in tears. Something about the building and the atmosphere and just the feeling of it seems to make me let go of a lot of things I normally hold back.

@CurlewKate thank you for your comment. I don’t feel the need to see a gp but thank you for your suggestion and your kindness.

@NeverDropYourMooncup Thank you for your comment. I think on some level you may be right. I have some baggage around feeling like a burden, so I guess it makes sense that the mercy of God would make me emotional.

I don’t feel the need to seek support just yet but I appreciate your comment and kindness.

@Thegreatestoftheseislove My tears are from a place like you describe. I don’t feel unhappy. I feel a deep sense of meaning all of a sudden. I think since becoming a parent I have viewed the sacrifice of Jesus in a completely new way.

thank you for your comment and kindness x

Have you ever visited the Sistine Chapel?

OP there’s no proof Jesus died for us.
Why would he create us, and therefore create sin, and then die for us to save us from his punishment of an eternity in hell. And then some men wrote a book about it 😑
Be careful about being brainwashed.

@ironorchids Definitely not pregnant ☺️ but yes I agree hormones could be affecting my emotions I guess. My youngest is only 1 so I’m still on the post natal rollercoaster

thank you for your comment x

@WinkyTinky I totally agree there’s something so moving about the beauty and grand scale . Thank you for commenting x

@Overtheatlantic No I haven’t. Why do you ask? I would really like to go x

@TwilightSkies Thank you for your comment. I don’t feel brainwashed. I have a very happy and normal and fulfilled life. But something about the bible and Jesus stirs me and moves me. I feel called. I know that might be hard to understand - I’m just getting to grips with it myself.
wishing you all the best x

OP why do you feel unworthy and sinful?

Misogynistic religion has made me cry too.

OP I've felt like you while at Mass, or just in church or sometimes just while reading my missal. It can be overwhelming to know and recognise the love that Christ has for us, but it's definitely a happy sort of overwhelming feeling. Occasionally I cry at Mass while I'm praying, whether because I'm sad about something or because I have an emotional response to a reading and always I feel comfort afterwards. It's just an expression of love. Don't dwell on your feelings of unworthiness or sinfulness, make your reconciliation in whatever way your church does it, know that you are loved and forgiven and move forward with confidence in that wonderful renewal and forgiveness.