So bit of background. Stable’ish’ childhood, parents separated as I left college. Few random years of too much partying, ending up in a relationship at 21. Stayed in relationship since, lots of traumas including being drugged but ended up with three beautiful children. I go between being happy with my lot as I look at my children everyday as the beautiful miracles they are and know that even if relationship is shit it gave me those. Don’t feel anything for my partner but we do get on. Can’t afford to leave as we have 40k debt £8k of which is in my name. Have a good job, good separate friends (not a girl gang though as none know each other). I know I’m lucky in so many aspects but never thought I’d be 40 in a loveless relationship, still renting despite working so hard all my life. Am I just pathetic and should accept my lot?