Faith in "someone watching over me" now gone..

[allgonebellyup]

i always used to feel there was someone watching over me, saving me every time i hit hard times, to pick me up and send me something great when i was extremely low. Now i have hit the hardest point of my life and i cant find any way forward. i feel like there is nobody looking out for me any more and i will never be happy again because i have lost all faith in anything.

Does anyone have any experience of this? i wouldnt say i am religious but i DID always believe i was being looked after. now i just feel lost.

thanks happyathome, yes i totally do believe in signs, sometimes when i am at my lowest i see this little robin appear, sometimes he will fly from tree to tree following me and singing at the top of its lungs as i walk home... do i sound crazy???

And also at certain times i could be thinking of something and a song will just come on the radio that sums up everything that i was feeling at that precise moment.

Meant to add, yes sometimes i do believe that all of this HAS happened for a reason, and it was all mapped out. i did treat my dh like crap and talk down to him all the time, and now he is with someone else i feel i have learnt a lesson about how to treat people properly.

purple-i understand what you mean,i didn't take your comments in a negative way.i agree that the best wisdom comes from within...wish i could hear mine a bit better.
allgone-no,not crazy,spookily too,i have been 'followed' by a robin and one comes and looks at me when i'm in the kitchen,like it's REALLY looking for me...wondered if it was re-incarnation of someone,but that's a whole other religion isn't it!!..i get a bit carried away when searching for comfort.
really sorry about your relationship.but just remember,it takes two to tango,so don't think it's just you in the wrong.
just about-nice thought.thanks

happyathome, would you be able to give me authors name/name of book you recently read which talks about everything happening perfectly?
Sounds just what i need at the mo.

the book's called 'Feel The Fear And Beyond',by Susan Jeffers.there's a book that precedes it,but i've not read it called 'feel the fear and do it anyway'.
(1998).i've borrowed it from library.i think if you don't have it at your local branch,i think the library can get it from another library for you(i did this with a music cd).it's basically a self-help book with writing exercises for you to do,that is supposed to change your thinking around.i've only read a bit so far and not done exercises yet,but plan to.it looks good.if you get it and like it,please let us know if you think it's good to.
take care
happyathome

thanks, have just ordered book x

i have concluded that all my faith is now well and truly gone.